Posts Tagged ‘photo’

No Longer


Look at them! Look at  how beautiful they are. The light that shines from them is wondrous.

This depression I’ve been experiencing lately has been affecting them, I’m sure of it. There are fewer giggles, fewer smiles from both of them – and it’s because of me, because I don’t feel like playing along with their games or reading them yet another story because all I want to do is curl up in bed, pull the covers over my head and hide from the world, and from myself too.

How can I be so selfish? How I feel has nothing to do with them. It’s not their fault, but I’m taking it out on them. They are reaping what I sow.

My children are my life. Just about every parent knows what I’m talking about. My life is completely different to what is was like before they came along, but I could never go back to that life knowing what I know now, knowing just how they’ve enriched my life.

And its for this reason, plus a few others, that I’ve decided that this depression will have control NO LONGER!

I’m sucking it up people! I’m getting my shit together and doing what I need to make my children laugh and smile like they used to. I’m laughing and smiling along with them – and as fake as it feels sometimes, it’s starting to feel a little bit more natural everyday.  I’ve starting exercising more. By the end of it, I’m tired, but I feel so much better.

So here’s hoping that things begin looking up. And if it doesn’t soon, I’ll be going to the doctor to discuss my options. I am not going to let this depression defeat my children as well as me!

an EYE on you!


So I was at Niobe’s blog and her recent post about eye color has inspired me to take a photo of my own eye…

take one...

take one...


So that was my first photo I took. And I must say it was a lot harder than I originally thought. I took this one sitting at my laptop. I think we could all agree that the above eye is blue. Yes?


Why is it then, when I moved into a room with MUCH better light for taking photos, did they turn out like this:


take two..


I wouldn’t say the above eye is a blue colour. In fact I don’t know how to describe that colour. Any thoughts??

I’m not sure whether I like the idea of my eyes changing colour. I mean, it just made me think that if the eyes are the windows to your soul, what does that say about mine? Does that mean that my soul is not constant? That I can change the core of my being as easily as light affects my eyes? Is my struggles in life made even more difficult because there is no stability in my person? What do you think?